If only i was there

Yesterday night while i was revising my biology,my sis told me that our dog Baby passed away in our Bukit Mertajam house. I was aware that he is sick but i thought everything is going to be okie since sis called the vet and the vet say that he's fine. I never expect thing happen especially during the night before my final paper.To be honest me and Baby not really that close cos i sort of hate him for keep on biting my leg every time he sees me.But somehow when i heard that news, tears drop and my heart hurts like being cut by a knife.

I just couldn't sleep.The moment when mom first bring him back to our house keep playing in my mind.I still remember he was like a guinea pig size when i first saw him. His fluffy fur and cute tails really make him so special.I even ask dad to buy some wood to build him a house.

In order to get rid of my sadness,I've decided to go out to have lunch with my family. Everything goes well until when i reach home, i saw my neighbour dog who look similar to Baby and once again the sorrow started to fill my heart.That moment i hate myself for not be there when he needed me.I don't even have the chance to say goodbye to him for the last.If only i was there to take good care of him so that this thing won't happen.I hate the irresponsible me!Sorry.........MAY YOU REST IN PEACE

Happy birthday Pinkbag aka Sayang

This post is dedicated to my sayang ~Wei Lian~




Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to Wei Lian, Happy birthday to you.......

Im sorry that we can't celebrate your birthday with you on the real day!!!!
So i've decided to write you this simple post to menebus kesalahan.........ahahahahahaah

I'm sorry

Stpm is next monday and today my dad told me.....

Dad : Ah Chien(me) so how was your revision going on?? Got confident or not??

Me : Arr.....don't know la.Don't ask me this kind of question!!!

Dad : You better get good result so that you an enter uni like both your sisters.If
you can't enter uni you sure "memalukan our family"!!!

Me : Yealar.........i know laaaaaa.Pls don't pressure me dad!!!

Well to be honest i don't really sure i can get good result or not. I don't have the confident at all.My dad put high hope on me and feel bad if i disappoint him.Somehow the song Apologize by Timbaland was playing in my mind the whole day........macam ada petanda buruk!!!!



I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

that it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new - yeah
I loved you with the a fire red-


Now it's turning blue, and you say...
I'm sorry like an angel
heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late whoaa ohhh...

Bridge (guitar/piano)

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holding on your rope, got me ten feet... off the ground...

Zaman kanak-kanakku

Tanah luas yang terbentang di halaman rumah nenek masih jelas dalam ingataku.Ketikaku masih seorang kanak-kanak,mak seringkali membawa kami(kakaks dan abang)bermain di rumah nenek. Kehidupan nenek dan datuk bergantung kepada ayam and babi peliharaan.Zaman itu membawa banyak kenangan manis kepadaku.

Aku masih ingat lagi, sekali mak membawaku ke reban ayam untuk memungut telur.Melihat telatah mak,aku pun cuba meniru tingkah lakunya.Sebelum tanganku sempat memang telur,ayam bodoh itu mematuk tangan kecilku.Tanpa segan silu, aku menampar muka ayam bodoh itu.Ayam bodoh itu menjerit kesakitan dan mak hanya memandangku dengan muka yang terkejut.ahahahahahahah

Kami(sepupu,kakaks,abang)sangat suka bermain di atas bukit.Di situ kami akan menangkap berudu, makan buah koko dan rambutan ( curi jiran mia).Sebaik saja menjelang senja, Mak Ngah akan membawaku ke kebun untunk menangkap kelip-kelip.Mak Ngah akan memasukkan kelip-kelip tadi ke dalam beg plastik dan mengantungnya di atas bilik tidur kami.Seronok rasanya bila tidur sambil menikmati cahaya yang tersebar di atas siling bilik.

Walaupun rumah nenek sudah diroboh untuk mendirikan resort yang mewah namun segala kenanganku di sana akan tersemat dalam hatiku buat selama-lamanya.Alangkah bagus kalau aku dapat kembali ke zaman kanak-kanakku yang penuh dengan kegembiraan.

Jika boleh aku ingin menjadi kanak-kanak selama-lamanya.Aku benci kehidupan kini yang penuh dengan cabaran dan dugaan hidup!Tekanan hidup membuatkanku semakin hari semakin tua!hahhahahaah

ps:sudah lama tak menulis karangan.Harap-harap anda akan suka akan karangan yang tak berkualiti daripadaku

Yang ikhlas,
~LuLuLayLay~

Bad experience

When i was in Std6 i went to KL that organised by my primary school with my classmates. Everything went smooth during our journey to the destination. Our first destination is a resort where we going to stay ( can't remember the resort's name). The resort offers normal facilities such as pool, gym, sauna and etc. After a short briefing from our principle, we went back to our respective room together with a teacher advisor.


In the room, one of my friend suggests that we go down to the pool. Although i don't know how to swim but i thought to myself why not just go down and rendam air? However our teacher advisor stop us from going simply because we don't have swim suit and normal attire is not that appropriate. Being good students we all listen to her and decided to rest at our room.


Suddenly, our room's bell rang. My friend(can't remember her name) appear and tell us that someone was drowned in the pool. Without much thinking we quickliy follow her to the pool. My heart was beating so fast as i walk towards the pool. As i walk closer to the pool, i saw not one but three on my friends lay inside the pool. One of the victim's head was bleeding.


At that moment I felt so helpless cause i just stood there like a statue and was not able to help them. My eyes couldn't stop staring at my friends who still inside the pool. A guy came out from the kitchen and jump into the pool. It happen so fast without me realising it. He quickliy grab the victims one by one. A few teachers help him to pull them up and started to do the CPR thingy.


After a while ambulans finally arrived and all the victims was sent to nearby hospital. The rest of us go back to a room and started to pray for our friend's safety in our own way. As darkness falls, we recieve a phone call from our principle saying that one of the students passed away in the hospital. I was so shocked and couldn;t accept the fact that she's gone. I t feels like yesterday we still talking and joking in our class but now i cant' hear her voice anymore.


The other two victim was in critical condition. That night we went back to Penang. During the journey one muslim friend told me that Allah love her more than we do. I agree but still tears drop from my fragile eyes. I just could'nt stop thining about her. Allah not only love her but Allah loves the three of them. ( they all passed away after sometime)


This experience has become a trauma for me. Until today i was afraid of water especially pool. Last week Abura told me that they going to learn how to swim after STPM. I told myself that i must learn to overcome this fear. Although this incident happen seven years ago but still some time i dreamt about the incident. I guess it's time for me to move on and forget all those unhappy thing that happen.

ps: give me some more time to ovecome this trauma of mine!

Blur case mia auntie

I've heard a lot about Super Tanker food court but I don't really been there before. So, one fine day me and my sisters decided to drop by and ta pau dinner. Due to too many variety of food offer there, i ask my elder sis to recommend me which one taste best.

Evelyn : What you wanna eat??
Me : Hmmmm....... so many choices how to chose wor. Abo you recommend me la since you tiam
eat at there.
Evelyn : I think the Thai food is the best la. Why not you try???
Me : Thai food??? okie oso.

So we went to the thai food stall and i started to queue up.
Here comes the story...........
Apparently the auntie was so busy cooking so she didn't really have the time to take my order so i just waited patiently for my turn. Behind me there were two boys waiting for their turn as well. Finally the auntie have the time to take my order......

Auntie : Ah boy lu ai ha mi???
Me : KNN ( monolog dalaman) .
Two boys : ahahahahahahahahahahahah (damn loud)
Auntie : Soli ah girl lu ai ha mia??(take so long to realise that i'm actually a girl!!!)
Me : Wa ai belachan rice.

* kek si wa nia..... come on auntie i have boost k. Btw i look like boy meh??? Although i'm not that girlish but somehow i still have "wen rou de yi mian" . The auntie really spoil my mood that day!!!! Luckily the belachan rice taste yummy abo i sure kill her!!!

Honey and Clover

A few months back my cousin, Donavan introduced me to this anime called Honey and Clover. This stroy are mainly about love, friendship and ambition. Takemoto, Morita, Mayama and Aya are a group of friends who stayed in the same apartment and study in a same art college in Tokyo. One day, their professor, Hanamoto introduces his cousin's daughter, Hagu to them. Both Takemoto and Morita fall in love with her. Morita approaches her in a sudden and that freak Hagu out. Meanwhile, Takemoto keep his feeling and try to be friend with her.


In the other hand Aya who is a master of pottery is famous with all the boys but Mayama is the one that she love most. Unfortunately Mayama treat Aya as a friend not as a lover. Instead Mayama falls in love with another older woman name Rika who happen to be Hanamoto's best friend. Rika runs a art company with the help of Mayama because she is disabled due to one car accident which also caused the death of his husband, Harada.

Although I'm not a big fan of anime but somehow I did cried a few times while watching this anime. Yeah you hear me I cried!!! I still remember Mayama once said " I hope that I can earn a lot of money so that if one day the woman that i love collapsed, I'll tell him don't worry take this money and go travel.Leave the rest of the thing for me." Isn't that sweet??? I'm not sure whether in the future i can find this kind of man or not.hahahahah. . (must pray harder)

I realise that even though you love that person and that person is in love with other, try to let go if you really love her/him. After all love is not all about having that person by your side. As long as she/he is happy you'll feel happy as well.( That is what i call LOVE) Never regret that you're once fall in love with her. She/He didn't betray you just that she/he is not you another half.

I hope that you guys out there can spend some time to watch this anime. But make sure you don't NEGLECT your study or else Apom sure kill me!!!! Choas from now

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

I always keep my thought in my heart and never express my feeling to other. But today I've decided to break the so called tradition and write something about my friends.

Choya
I still remember after the OC 2006 we got cloe to each other thanks to the kui tok thingy.(still remember siapa kita gossip?)heheheeh. Well the bond get stronger after we stared to bina our keluarga Bitch.This one and a half year friendship really means a lot to me. I really enjoy the moment that we day dreaming in class,skipping class for the traditional dance,make bday card for ryan,cucuk ryan's leg during bio lesson and haunting clothes for our farewell and not to forget gossiping. I really thank god that i found you as a friend and i think that my circle of friendship is not be complete without you. THANKS and Love ya!!!!

Pink bag aka my sayang
I really appreciate all the liltle thing that you did to make my life brighter. Your GENEROSITY such as drop me be back after school really touches my heart. Sorry for tiam tiam mahuan you.
I like the moment when we stare at each other in the class and then........ (you know) this show that we got the chemistry as in friendship.hahahaha I still hope that after ten years we can meet up and play daytona again and after 30 years meet at fort conwallis and continue the to play swing(i afraid to swing high high). Thanks for being such a great friend!!!

ZZZ-Xiang(Apom)
Merentas desa is the factor that we get to know each other better!!!! Both of us like old friend that sudah lama tak berjumpa and keep on talking from the start till the so called finishing line. Even Waiyan said both of us are talkative.hahahahahah who cares. Although you keep on scolding me for ponteng school and neglect my study but that show that you are a good boy (all thanks to my didikan). All our outings won't be success without you presence not that because you're the driver but because your voice make the day!!! Keep up the great personality!

Abura aka yonro
My first impression about you is "why is this guy so quiet?" because during merentas desa you hardly speak. But i was so damn wrong about you. Indeed you freak me out when you keep on nagging us about your nick (ah bii). That time me and choya really terkejut with your split personality.I guess thats the reason why you are so special.ahahahahahah Although you always potong steam during our outings,meetings,chatting and etc but still having you as a friend really make my world more colourful!!! Friends forever!!


Waiyan aka monitor
I have to admit you're a good monitor!!! You and Teenes always make sure that everything goes well especially our last class party. I really enjoy the gossipng about the programme " I WANT TO BE A MODEL" during our extra class.(both of us are Jit Shiong's supporter) I do hope that our friendship can last till the day i say goodbye to this world. Kinda ironic huh?? But that phrase come from the bottom of my heart.

ps: sorry for all the wrong doing that i did. I do hope that our friendship can keep on blossoming.